My Love Life

Hello everyone! It's been a while since the last time I wrote something. As you can see in the title, I will be writing about my love life. Well, I have a feeling it will be more of a rant though. You can probably already tell but my love life pretty much sucks. Let me explain

If you have read my blog before, you will have most likely already seen my past 2 rants. He, was infact, my first love. I'll write a summary for those who are too lazy to go read my past rants. I'll name him P1 for now. So P1 was this guy that came into my school on 5th grade, he sat next to me on 5th, 6th and a bit of 7th grade. I confessed to him but he never really told me how he felt towards me, then he left back to his him country. Then I never heard his answer for me, currently I'm in 8th grade, I finally got over P1 reason being I started to like someone else, P2. Well I wouldn't exactly call it like, just a little short time fling, but the problem with him was that even if it was a little fling I was disheartened because he once said that he doesn't like halfs (yes, I'm half thai half english) After that, I decided to give up before u actually fall for him. And then comes P3, he is a guy at the ice skating rink I go to, I've known him for a while and he is good friends with my bestfriend, she calls him her little brother, I didn't really notice my feelings for him until recently, because I wa s disheartened thinking I'd be a virgin for life, lol. I was really hurt by P1, so I was too scared to fall for someone again, but without knowing it, I had already fell for P3, P3 goes along with lots of girls so there's always girls around him, making me jealous. He's also very dense, I've hunted my feelings to him once but he totally didn't get it, I have a feeling I'll probably get stuck in the friend zone. Now enough about that, let's see the main points. You are probably thinking "Why P#, instead of names. Well it's most likely because of privacy and p probably stands for Person." But that's not quite right. It's actually because all 3 guys names started with 'P' (this was actually noted by my bestfriend, I didn't really notice it) I wouldn't say that I had a specific type of person I'd fall for, but let's just note the thingss that the 3 guys I fell for had in common

They are all people I know well

They are 1 year apart for me (younger or older doesn't really matter)

They are gentle people (even if they don't show it)

I've known them for more than a year beige falling for them

We have a lot of things in common (as in hobbies)

So, you can probably already tell but I don't just fall for people randomly, I get to know them first and the feelings just follow along later. Also, because I get to know them, I always get stuck in the friend-zone (T^T) There's also another reason that I always get stuck in the friend-zone. That reason is, people always say that I feel more like a boy than a girl, not in a gay way, more like in a bro way. Like, I feel more like their bro than a girl, but my best friend says that it's just an excuse to hide their feelings. Guys that I do attract are older teenagers and creepy guys. Recently, I just had a problem with a guy in my class. He is the creepiest person I've ever met! He would suddenly just walk behind me for no reason and just stand there looking at what I was doing with a rape face on. It is so creepy, not to mention he is always staring at me with that same rape face. It he's also a very disgusting and a disgrace of a human being. He has glasses, pimples all over her face and he can't close his mouth because of his disgusting teeth. Not to mention he is the fattest mother fucker I've ever met (I apologize for my rude language but I really hate him) He keeps talking to me through line, even though I never answer him. He still continues to bug me EVERY SINGLE DAY,

I'm

Not

Joking.

I'm getting off topic, so that's how my love life is, the boys don't see me as a girl and only creepy people are attracted to me. I might have more to say, maybe an update if I get a boyfriend (my arse)

That's it for now!

See you~

-Jenny